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HER: Hahahha. Well. Thank you nman. Ikw dn. Wag kna blanko. Baka mmya pag balik ko iba ka na

HIM: Haha. Di ah. Sige best, kakain lang ako. Tkecare

HER: Hahaha. Tngnan ntn. Sige. Eatwell. Byeeee. Tkcare.

28/03/11

// ako pa sinabihan mo niyan ahh hahahaha sa huli, ikaw na may iba :) peaceout.

seriously im fucked up for like 12 hours before christmas. i can’t hide this emotion of mine but i feel so downed, bullied and alone. forever alone. i thought my close peers would support me and comfort me, but what the hell are they doing to me? it feels like they’re staring from-head-to-toe-to-head at me, laughing at me ‘coz of what i TF (truly feel) to someone. this TF came out last sembreak and i even tell her this feeling of mine. i was a bit lonely when she had her “half-heart filled”. life goes on. i continued my life. study here. party there. then all of a sudden a “past” came again and shit memories. recalling. reminiscing. fuck and i hate it. let’s say 5% burst out on my heart again for her. but that’s not TF. let’s say walang magawa. bored. pampalipas lang. i even text this prob to my “bestfriend(?)” and she has no good advice to me. she even told this to “B”

“sabi nga: pag matalino, mahina sa pagmamahal” i dunno if i could accept this as a fact but this quotation still lingers on my mind everytime i think about what the hell is happening to me. okay. i have no looks. i am a geek. but would you(“B”) mind you’re being too rude to me? you’re even questioning my sex. WTF i thought WE - WERE - FRIENDS. Akala ko maiintindihan mo ako(“B”). Bakit ikaw pa ‘tong nangungunang MANGGATONG SA “PAST” ko???? Alam kong hindi ako gwapo, pero bakit sukdulan naman ang paninira mo sakin? MAY NAGAWA BA AKONG MALI? NASAKTAN BA KITA PARA GANTUHIN MO LANG AKO?

for my “past”, does it bother you that i still have IA’s with you or is it just me - my loyalty? Grabe. ayoko na. ayoko na magmahal. <//////////3

and to all reading this nonsense post or still interested to read this, sorry im ruining your christmas spirit. i just can’t hide it na talaga. wala lang talaga akong MATINONG KAIBIGANG MASASANDALAN. starting now, SERIOUSLY, wala na akong crush or love. makasira pa sa future ko hohoho (and wait, can’t wait for january 3 and 7. upcat and acet results will be released. hope i can pass and if ever, this would be the greatest xmas gift everrr)

i don’t even know what will i do when we see each other on the 28th? would i be fierce? stay natural? or just smile just to hide my griefs? -______________-

PS. all of my thought are my instincts. INSTINCTS. and i know FOR MYSELF this is real. fucking real.